Anyone that knows me knows that I am a very fearful person. I have been given the nickname “cautious girl” by Zoey because I am also an overthinker and she says that everything I do in my life is based off of my overthinking and caution for everything; in my defense, she is the complete opposite and doesn’t think through anything. I believe there is a happy medium, which neither of us are…
Anyway, I have far too many fears, not conventional fears like snakes and spiders, but more fears like being kidnapped and things along those lines. Now, I wouldn’t call all of my fears irrational, as much as people like to tease me about them, because a lot of them are pretty rational in my opinion. For example, my fear of the ocean is rational because I am afraid of animals like sharks because they could be swimming under you without you even knowing, whereas on land, you can see what animals are around you--that is why my fear of animals in the water is far worse than land animals. So, this is a fear I believe is pretty common and rational…
Moving on to my slightly more irrational fears--I still do not consider these irrational because they have rationality to back them up, but I can understand how they are slightly less rational than being afraid of the ocean. One of my fears that I have yet to overcome, even at the age of 17, is my fear of the dark. Maybe in my past life I was kidnapped in the dark, who knows…I think I am scared of the dark for the same reason I am afraid of the ocean--I don’t like not knowing, and you really don’t know what’s around you in the dark the same as you don’t know what’s around you in the ocean.
Moving on to my last fear and the thing that prompted me to write this blog: my fear of chicken. Sunday night I found myself awake at 6am, unable to fall asleep. Now, what is the best food on Superbowl Sunday. If you didn’t say chicken wings you’re wrong. Anyway, I had chicken wings Sunday night, and to no surprise, I had an anxiety attack later while trying to fall asleep. My biggest fear is throw up, whether it is myself or someone else, I cannot handle it--honestly, though, it’s worse when it’s myself. Mind you, I have gotten food poisoning twice from raw chicken, both times when other people ate the same chicken as me and did not get food poisoning. My sister also has a fear of undercooked chicken, but like I always do, I adopted her fear and made it 10x worse. Over the years, it has escalated to an extreme, and now I am afraid of eating any chicken, although for things like chicken wings, I have to bend my rules a bit. But it comes with the consequence of staying up with the anxiety that I could throw up. I ended up eating a bar at 6am and then falling asleep by the way and waking up 2 hours later for class. I think my fear of chicken is rationalized considering I have been very unlucky TWICE, but for some reason people still make fun of me:,((
Anyway, I pretty much just called myself out in this blog...But, if you read this whole thing, you’re basically my therapist now, so drop some suggestions in the comments and tell me how crazy I am for having a fear of chicken:))
Ok. 1) Sharks don't attack you unless you attack them first. If you stay in shallow waters, you are less likely to run into an angry shark. Also if you wear sunglasses, you can see better in the ocean. 2)If it’s dark, turn on the light, it’s simple. You’re phone has a flashlight and if you spam it, it calls the police... crazy I know. 3) Check to see if your chicken is cooked through before you eat it. 4) Vomit is nasty but it won’t kill you so you don’t need to be scared of it. Hope this helps!
ReplyDeleteWOW! This was kind of a vicious reply! hah
DeletePFFT ok, we saw TWO sharks right at the shore when we went to the beach one time and although they weren't angry, I would have died of a heart attack if I had been in the water. Second, it's not always so simple to turn on a light. My phone might be dead or if I'm going to sleep I'm not gonna sleep with light...And movie theaters are dark but if I turned on a flash light I don't think people would be too happy...
DeleteOk we didn’t see two sharks, we saw the same one twice. You were the one chasing it down the shoreline... just saying. I’ve been in the water where there’s been a shark in between me and the shore. The shark didn’t do anything to me because I didn’t do anything to it. It just swam right by
DeleteDana the sharks that we see at the shore, or at least the ones we saw, are nurse sharks and those are harmless.
Deletestill doesn't take away from the fact that they are sharks and I would die on the spot if it came close to me
DeleteAll of your fears stem back to that fear of the unknown. It is what has pushed and moved people from the beginning of time. Heck, it is how mythologies were invented - whole systems of being based on needing explanations and understanding of everything!
ReplyDeleteYes, exactly. I hate not knowing...I always need closure and an explanation for everything in my life.
DeleteBut with this mindset, isn’t everything the unknown? You never know exactly how your life will go when you leave the confines of your room. Some people fear it, others embrace it.
DeleteYes, I have learned to deal with it, but that's such a black and white view. Obviously everything is unknown and I'm honestly pretty content with the abstract idea of the unknown because when my time comes it comes.
DeleteDana you know my biggest fear is the ocean. I hate not being able to see what is under me, and I'm literally getting anxiety just thinking about itttt!!! I'm also scared of chicken, and it has caused me to only eat chicken if my mom makes it at home, nowhere else...
ReplyDeleteI understand being afraid of the ocean because there are many different things that could potentially hurt you but most likely wont but being afraid of chicken is something that is very strange but funny.
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